5 Years Ago Tomorrow

Five years ago tomorrow, I was having a tubal reversal done. After surgery I had 76% chance of getting pregnant and having more children. I haven't had any more children, there were a couple of times I had pregnancy test that were faint all to come to naught. This entire experience has been a roller coaster ride for me. I know it has been difficult for my family as well at times. (We women are emotional.)

However, I have learned much through this life experience: resentment, loss, pain, joy, hopefulness, sadness. The realization that it is indeed God who opens the womb. Perhaps the greatest lesson learned from all of this is that I am NOT in control He is. I am merely the vessel. I am to give Him glory NO MATTER WHAT!

After folks find out that you've had a reversal the number one questions is always, "How many more kids do you want?" My response was always, "Well, we need to have one first and then we'll see."

It has also been difficult for me to live with my choice. It was my choice to have the tubal ligation. I have to live with the knowledge that I will most likely never have more children because of that decision.

It is my prayer that others will not go through the same pain that I have. I did not have anyone telling me to think it over, make sure that a TL was what I wanted. I didn't have anyone telling me you are only 25...you may want more children one day. If you or someone you know are considering your options, please make sure you have ALL the facts. Tubal ligations can cause other issues, make sure your doctor lets you know about them.

NCMom